Obsessive posting

I posted twice today at work and now here I am again. I need to get some pics up on this baby. Anyway I'm being a little obsessive about blogging- I'm sure it is just the excitement, with it being new and all. Anyway, this time it's not about knitting.
I went the gym after work and did 30 minutes cardio on the bike and then my lower body on weights. I am feeling really good about my self right now. My butt is going to be screaming in the morning. I can hear them already "WHAT DID YOU DO GIRLFRIEND?"
I did squats, walking lunges, quad & ham extensions, the inner & outer thigh machines and the butt blaster machine. I was sweating like a hog. My two girlfriends that go to the gym with me are both these little things so I always feel like this big oaf next to them. They are just working out in their little gear like "whatever" I'm in there fighting a war. The 3 of us are on the cardio bikes. I'm interval training and pedaling my literal ass off and the two of them are like "Hum De Dum". I know I'm just hating on my girls right now. It's ok I'll be there soon enough. I challenging myself to transform in the next twelve weeks. I'm not even done with week one.
I told my husband I feel like the UFF (ugly fat friend) . I don't think I'm fugly (frickin' ugly), I'm cute in my own way but I do feel self conscious next to them.
There use to be a time when i had confidence and felt like my stuff didn't stink but these days I'm about thirty pounds too much overweight to be kidding myself. I'm just faking it until I make it. But honestly, I don't even feel like me anymore... I guess the good thing is that when I exercise and eat healthy I feel great. I just have to make sure i stay on track. When I don't do those things I feel like I am at the bottom of the barrel. Nonetheless, the point in my post was to say what an incredible work out I had today and my eating was on point. I fit in all 5 meals and they were all balanced and prior to 8:00 pm. Hawaii here I come.