Wednesday, September 13, 2006

Moment of suckage

I may have mentioned that my Matty (honey/husband) is going away to military training on my birthday (Sept.30th).
He graduated from college in May of this year and was commissioned as a 2nd Lt. in the Army. He has been Goldbarring (recruiting) at the college he attended until he could make it to BOLC II (Basic Officer Leadership Course). BOLC II training is located in Ft. Benning, Georgia. I will be moving down to Georgia at the end of the year. He will be attending several training schools after BOLC. His training schools won't be over until around summer of next year and then we head off to Vicenza, Italy!
Now Italy, I'm pretty excited about- Georgia not so much. Actually, I have nothing against Georgia, it's just the initial leaving my house, (we own it and put a great deal of time and effort into making it our own) leaving my friends and family, and leaving my way of life that is freaking me out.
I actually do pretty good with change and I am definately the type of person who tries to suck things up and not whine about them. I'm actually a pretty tough cookie if I don't say so myself but on the inside I have to admit there is a tiny part of me that is in an uproar over all the change.
Mainly, I don't want to be without my honey. There is that weak part of me that wants to throw myself around his ankles and scream, "DON'T GO HONEY!" :-( I feel like a bad wife, I know it's his dream, I know it's his job, I knew and have always known what we signed up for. I'm partially a military brat myself. I fully support him and his goals and I'm very proud of him and I want to be 10000% supportive but I'm having a moment of suckage here. I'm pretty much being selfish and whiny. Stay tuned tomorrow for something better than this; dude, I totally feel like I want to go buy something new or eat something...LOL.
No worries, I won't.


Abigail 1870 pearl said...

Honey, I know how you feel. My hubby and I were prior military. It's hard to let them go. But your attitude is great! Let him know you love him and reassure him that you will be o.k. while he's gone. It helps him to know that he can count on you when he's away. Knit him lot's of socks that will help:D!

I'm here for you if you need me.

Matty said...

I appreciate you honey, you'll never be without matter where I am.

yarnmamapanj said...

Hi! Love your blog. I had to stop by with that name. I am on some knitting groups/swaps youv'e been in I think. My daughter's name is Nina and we call her Ninabeena :)
Her birthday was Sept 9! (she turned 13 (ugh! pray for me!)
I didn't see your email so that is why I put it here.
Be encouraged.

anne said...

You shouldn't feel bad for venting. We all need it. Good luck with the move.

Black Purl said...

I KNOW the feeling..I am here if you need me.....hugs

blackpurl said...

best wishes on the move... and yeah it does duck to have your hubby be away for your bday! Hopefully, he will make it up to you when you get there!

blackpurl said...

okay so typing at three am is not always good! that should say suck not duck!

Ninabeena said...

Wow! Thank you guys so much for commenting and showing your concern. Sorry it's taken me forever to get back to my site!
Thanks Abigail and sis;It actually does make me feel better to know you guys have been there and done that and survived it all. I am very much the type to think to myself, "If they've all done it I can do it too!" :-)It still stinks though! lol
Yarnmama, what are the odds?! You're daughter is one cool kid if she's names Nina AND she was born in September AND she has the same nickname as me! j/k Seriously though it's kind of an uncommon name. They hardly ever have it at tourism store when you want to get one of those keychains or shotglasses. I'm always bummed over that but once in a while when you do find you name (spelled correctly) on's pretty exciting. BTW, have I mentioned I'm easily amused before? :-)
Blackpurl, thanks. I hear you just recently had a move too. How did that go?

Ninabeena said...

Anne, thanks. I know it's somewhat natural to feel this way but for some reason I feel kinda of bad whining about it. I always feel like, "Geez, Nina it could always be worse or other people have it a lot worse than you girl so suck it up." I'm cutting myself a break and I gave myself my moment:-)