Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Ever feel dissatisfied with everything you do?
I feel like I want to rip and/or restart every project I have on the needles right now. I'm not sure if I like anything that I am making. I need something to be finished or I need something to be started.

WIP #3

Dear Delta,

1. Who wrote these frickin’ instructions?
2. Will it even fit?
3. Do you have enough yarn?
4. Do I really like you?
5. Are you even worth it?

Sunday, April 15, 2007

WIP #2

The first picture is what the sock use to look like. The second pic is what it looked like after I ripped back. The only thing I don't have a picture of is where I'm at with all this now. I have knit some more sock and am currently at the short row heel again with a lot less long of a foot. It looks better already. I just hope I can pull off this heel. This part freaks me out and I always lose track of what I'm doing. If I can just get thru the one I know I'll exhale and be fine for the next. I just want to knit lots of socks perfectly without that too much to ask?

And the winner is?

I am way behind on the movie reviews. I have got a butt load of movies that I've seen and haven't posted up. This weeks is tough for me. There were a lot of good movies (in my opinion).

21. Haven- What a disturbing movie. So disturbing. This movie had me still thinking about it all almost a good week after. This is another adult content type movie. Severely. There were so many good things but truly I just found this one upsetting to me-on a personal level. I didn’t understand the character of Zoe Saldana. She really just threw me for a loop. I believe I had such a tough time because so much in the movie was the complete opposite of what I believe personally. Even though I feel I’m incredibly in tune with the role of fiction and usually have zero problem with extrication from movies and viewing them as entertainment or for artistic value or catalyst for conversation etc., this one in particular just seemed so authentic to me and it was disturbing. Matty watched this one with me and even he said “Wow, I can’t tell if that was good or not,” at the end. The depiction of human greed, the distortion of real love, the severe and almost normal practice of drug use and Zoe's character and all the character lines Crashing into each other (came out the same year) makes this a complex movie that just resulted in this viewer feeling heavy. It was a heavy movie

22. Derailed- A really good Jennifer Aniston movie! Ok this movie is adult content but I thought it was good. I was afraid that it was going to be scary (I don't do scary) but actually it was a thriller. The storyline was unexpected and it really had some good twists in it. Now, I’m sure that Matty would have said he knew what was going to happen from the beginning credits (he’s just that way) but I thought the movie unfolded beautifully and while I was trying to figure the pieces and how Clive would get his footing again it wasn’t annoyingly textbook predictable. I find that these days that I've seen so many movies that I get irritated when they all start to play out to be the same thing- didn't have that tinge here. Boy, I’ve already split my selections up a couple times but there are some close contenders this week.

23. Lucky Number Slevin – I’m telling you Bruce is still doing his thing as he gets up there in years (52). Though as a sidenote I'm not sure if the new Die Hard is going to be too over the top for me. What if Willy goes out like Harrison Ford who should have stopped years ago?
Anyway- There were many parts of this movie that was so unbelievably predictable but then there were things that came as a “surprise” just as well. It was great to watch the whole plot unfold because they did a lot of the story telling out of order. The characters were quirky and I’ll even use the word fun. I’ve decided that between seeing the Black Dahlia and a couple other Hartnett flicks that I like him. (Could it be the manjaw?) I liked the movie. I thought all the characters where well acted and I really liked the unveiling at the “resolution” of the story of how everything came to be. I was surprised at how much I was rooting for the love connection for Hartnett and Liu and I liked the depiction of their relationship because at first it doesn’t seem that serious but as time goes on you realize it’s something more.

24. Crank- Usually I’m all about the action and with a name like Crank I was expecting a lot of it. I was disappointed. Don’t get me wrong there was violence and high energy-lots of high energy but it was mainly shooting and chopping and seaming. I prefer my violence to come from a good aggressive butt kicking; I mean he (Jason Statham) kicked butt in the Transporter, so what happened? Did he get too caught up in making a “cool and trendy” vicely action flick instead of sticking to martial arts? While the film style had form of humor that was presented differently and somewhat entertainingly and more unconventional than what you see on some levels (which I could appreciate) I didn’t really dig the movie; I found it to be a little crass and even offensive at times. I tried to imagine how I would feel watching this movie in the theatre or in mixed company. I even had the thought, geez, I wouldn’t want to watch this with anyone who I cared what their opinion was of me…like a mother in law or a nephew or something. It’s definitely not a movie for little ones. There were humorous moments thrown in there with this crazy quick concept of a movie but there actually wasn’t enough for me to call the movie good. I’m glad I did not pay money to see this in a theatre. It’s one of those movies that in 6 -12 months you’ll look back and amuse yourself in regard to some of it's corniness. I thought the ending was the best part of the movie…seriously it was clever.

25. Ask the Dust- The box said “exceptional performances”. I don’t know about that but you see, there is something to like about this movie but I’m not quite sure what it is. The acting seemed good but not “exceptional” it was sometimes cheesy even, the storyline (I believe intentionally)got goofy at times and I felt like there was so much more they could have done with some of the characters. Still, the movie has something. Albeit, sex appeal. Salma jumps into a twilighted ocean naked as a jaybird with her disgustingly dang near perfect form ( I want that without an uncomfortable blink or twitch of shyness or embarrassment. Later they (Colin and Salma) have a love scene. I picked up the box to double check the rating again. “Is this porn?” I mumbled. Also, there is something drawing about the fixation and focus that both characters place on race and their own social status and economic status in this particular era. They are very open and confrontational with their bias’ (is that a word?) and struggles with prejudice to one another and their own self oppression is constantly looming and evident. I liked the movie though I’m fairly sure that most won’t. I found the ending in the desert quite moving.

Boy who will it be this week? The only reason I’d recommend Haven is so you all could be as confused as I was. The other movies were really good but where they better than each other? Though undoubtly “lighter” (which isn’t saying much considering you’ve got thriller/drama’s) where they better than Haven? Though disturbing there was just something about story and the presentation even. The gritty feeling of it all...something. I choose Haven but do rent Bruce and Salma and Jennifer. ;-)

Friday, April 13, 2007


Went to my interview yesterday
Dressed professionally.
Got there 10 minutes early.
Politely approached front desk,"My name is Nina Bailey and I have an appt. for an interview with Fallon at 11:30."
Receptionist: "Oh, OK. You can have a seat."
I sit down in front of a glass windowed office where Fallon (complete with name tag) is looking directly at me. I smile. The receptionist goes over to her and they chat.
Receptionist returns: "OK, I'll be interviewing you today over here, I still need to cover the phones and front desk so excuse me," as she ushers me to the edge of some other random office. I hand her my resume.
"What time frame were you looking for? Is transportation an issue? What position are you looking for? OK, well she's done a lot of interviewing today and I'm not sure on how much hiring she plans to do. She'll give you a call."
Me? I'm still a little shocked that they've wasted my time to ask me questions that I filled out on the application the day before. I regained my mental composure, smile, thank her for the "interview". Fallon watches me as I exit. I give her a pleasant smile as well.
What. the. crap? Why do a call back specifically stating, "Would you like to come in for an interview with Fallon at around 11:30 tomorrow?" have me drive 20 minutes across town for a 3 minute interview with the receptionist while the original interviewer looks you dead in the face while doing nothing else important? Furthermore the receptionist informs you "She's had a lot of interviews today--uh, yeah I was under the impression that I was one of them." I have to admit that as I drove home I was pretty ticked.
I filled out another application to another place yesterday. I'm going to fill out more today. I'm still very irritated with the whole experience I've had here job hunting period. Literally every place that I've gone to has had some weird story or ridiculous level of incompetence/unprofessionalism involved. I am not being conceited- I promise you guys I'm not- but I know for a fact it's not me. 100% of the time I've been more professional and put together than any of the people I've been dealing with. Matty says that's the problem (of course he would say that).
I don't want to work an office job and I do not want to work retail.
More than anything I was really excited about this interview and I feel like I was wronged in some way today. I felt like something was fishy for some reason. I don't know what it was but I had the "What is really going on here?" feeling.

Thursday, April 12, 2007

Epiphynil almost

One of the gyms called me back.
I'm going on an interview today. 11:30
I'm realizing how much I really want to do this and how much I might really enjoy it. I feel like I'm on the verge of finding my niche or something. We'll see.
I keep having these very revealing thoughts to myself...epiphanal almost. (Probably not a word but think "epiphany") Since I made the word up I think I'll spell it epiphynil because the "anal" makes me feel weird and also the previous spelling reminds me of elephant....leave me alone I'm having a really weird goofy day.
Anyway, I feel more and more like..."I would love for this to be my life; I could pursue this, I could really be all that I can be at this, I could really help other people change so much just by changing one thing. I could help change a life in a personal way."
I mean dude, just losing the weight that I have has changed me radically- mainly on the inside actually...more on that later
Something else I've realized over the years is that the look I'm working to achieve is a look I've loved since I was a little girl...I've always thought muscles and strong bodies were cool/beautiful...I mean the Hulk, Hulk Hogan, the Ultimate Warrior, Sting, Conan...I was going to MARRY these men when I was little....I remember watching the bodybuilding men flexing on TV and thinking "Wow". When American Gladiator came out and there were actually strong AND pretty woman on the show I was really interested. She-Ra, Red Sonja, Xena, Wonder woman, all the girls in old kung-fu flicks that kicked butt, Tina Turner in MadMax, heroes. Anyway that was an important point for me for some reason. I guess it makes me feel like my goals are grounded in my authentic self or something and not on some other craziness just because someone else is doing it (trendiness or something). I guess realizing that helped me own it or something, iono. Anyway, the other thing that I actually wrote down in a journal one day was a statement that hit me like a ton of bricks: It's important to me to reach my goals because I want the outside to reflect what is going on inside of me. I want the outside to be a statement that is spoken without words; I'm just as strong and beautiful on the outside as I am on the inside. I know I have inner strength. I've always been confident that I will survive, life will go on, hard times will come, I'll make it through and be stronger. I don't know if I'm an optimist who's bouncing off the walls with positivity or anything but I am able to level headedly look at the glass as half full because of the inner strength God has given me. Inner strength and resilience. It is the one spiritual gift I know that I do have.

Saturday, April 07, 2007

WIP #1

I’ve had this Lorna’s Laces Bullfrogs and butterflies yarn in my stash for forever.
I decided to start a clapotis. You know the scarf shawl thingie that practically every knitter on the planet in blogland has already knit…yeah, I started it when I went to VA.

The picture here is a little outdated. I’m still on the second section but I've dropped more stitches now.
I love the yarn I’m using. The colorway is called Tuscany. I had to order two more skeins because when I originally bought the yarn I only bought it with hopes no real plans. Now here it is two years later…..
So far I’ve noticed that you really gotta pull this yarn to get the stitches to “run” in the pattern.
Oh and apparently there is one other chick just as cool as I am who hasn’t knit this baby yet I love the colors she chose

Thursday, April 05, 2007

Almost totally forgot, February=5

Here are February’s finished dishcloths for the knit along.

Notice I did two of the Mid-month pattern. I was pretty excited to knit it and really enjoyed myself. I was a psso – ing and k2tog tbl fool.
I made one in white which is perfect without flaw( I have a lifetime supply of white lion cotton yarn) and the other one is SnC cotton. It’s a color called seashore; it ain’t so perfect. Anyway, the color is being discontinued and it was one of the skeins I bought for a mere $0.75
The first pattern was cute and Valentine’s dayish. I used Rose colored SnC and it turned out really sweet. I have to say that when you block these cotton dishcloths it makes a world of difference.
I never brought y'all totally up to speed after I got home from my trip to VA. Did I mention that I've got a lot of projects going on? Well, here's a peek. I'll give you a break down in the days to come

Wednesday, April 04, 2007


NOTE: Jerry if you're reading divert thine eyes...although a message like this always tempts me to read anyway so read at your own risk...

I mean really could I feel any fatter today?!?!! And the freaking Midol is NOT working.

Going for a run, maybe it will make me feel better.

I haven't knit all week either. I need to try some knitting, maybe I need some knitting "zen" in my life...

I mean seriously I'm just angry for no good reason right now...I can feel the ball of anger in my chest...just hateful